would you wait me at the other side?

While listening to DARK PARADISE by Lana Del Rey, buat aku terpikir si arwah. 4 bulan 12 hari, sejak you left us didi.


All my friends tell me I should move on
I’m lying in the ocean, singing your song
Ahhh, that’s how you sing it
Loving you forever, can’t be wrong
Even though you’re not here, won’t move on
Ahhh, that’s how we play it

Everytime I close my eyes
It’s like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I’m scared that you won’t be waiting on the other side
Everytime I close my eyes

it makes me think, why should i be scared that you won't wait for me??
the answer was there..
even before you are gone.
no one knows the truth and aku tak rasa aku boleh handle another one.
maybe it sounds silly, but...
even time does fly, the scars will never be gone.

Didi, even min dah ada apis. I just wanna love him, for who he is. Not because i see you in him.

Kadang2 semua pengorbanan dia, i can't help thinking yang dia buat semua tu untuk tebus semua kesalahan didi pada min.


                                  AL - FATIHAH..

dah tertulis

Assalammualaikum..

  8hb SEPT 2012.

          Tarikh dimana Allah ambil insan yang aku sayangi, insan yg aku setia menunggu tak kira sampai bila, insan yg aku sanggup sakit asalkan dia bahagia, insan yg aku nak tgk sentiasa trsenyum.. YA ALLAH, betapa aku rindukan senyuman dia. 

          Tarikh ini gak, permulaan bagi aku sebagai penuntut Bachelor of Laws LLB (Hons) di Shah Alam. Subuh tu, dia IM di FB n berlanjutan texting kat fon. Aku sentiasa gembira bila dia muncul, boleh dikatakan bermulanya hari itu aku ditemani dia. Tapi, wkt Maghrib, aku nampak nama dia muncul dkt skrin fon, hati aku gembira sgt nk cter kt dia ttg pendaftaran aku. Tibe2 aku rasa lain mcm bila dgr suara org lain. It's Apies, abang arwah, and he's telling me that Fadhil is no longer with us. Reaksi aku?? Aku diam n just cakap OK. Dalam hati aku, "lau btol dy nak larikan diri dr ak, jgn wat prank cmni". Then, aku cter kt rumate aku, she gav the same reaction n for a moment, I was crying terribly sbb takot sume tu btol n aku xtw nak watpe. So, we went out to hav our dinner.

          The weirdest thing is, balik jer dr dinner, a guy from Brunei tegur aku & introduced himself. His name is FADHILLAH RABAEE. Petunjuk dari Allah tok bgthu aku berita td btol? Wa'allahualam, tp aku da start xsdap aty wkt tu. Then, around 1am, aku trjaga, terpikir..tgk fon, ad text dr kwn asking whether aku da tw ke?? THERE! from that moment, I knew he's gone forever, INNALILLAH.. TAK TIDUR, crying until 5am, sitting alone. 

         Next morning, aku di rumah dia tuk pay the last respect. Lemah semangat aku wkt tgk jenazah dia. Aku kuatkan diri tok tgk pn sbb mak dia ckp "tgklaa, lepas ni dah xley tgk daa.." Mak dia bukak jer kain tu, air mata aku dah meleleh. Aku xpernah tgk muka dia camtu, dalam hati "nape dia xsenyum??" "senyumlaa" "min xpernah tgk di xsenyum". 

          Aku ada sampai jenazah dia dikebumikan, mcmne min selalu setia ngn di, cmtu gak min nak ada dgn di sampai saat terakhir. Dalam satu hari, aku hilang dia yg aku tunggu2, mcm2 cerita. Macamne aku nak respon? DIa dah xde, aku xley dgr pnjelasan dr mulut dy sndri. Aku hanya boleh melutut, mohon kekuatan dr MU. 

TERIMA KASIH MUHAMMAD FADHIL BIN ROJELIN SBB PERNAH BUAT MIN BAHAGIA DGN SENYUMAN KAMU. 

                       

TERIMA KASIH MUHAMMAD HAFIDZ BIN ROJELIN SBB ALWAYS BE BY MY SIDE. :)

Redbook

Guys, saya dah dapat kerja. Yes, dah brkerja. baru masuk hari ke-4 jer ponnnn. Alhamdulillah, selesa dgn kerja ini. plus,dapat kawan baru..ada Kak Jammie, Kak Dayah & Mira. dorg pu otak gila2 so xde la boring. penat tu penat la gak, sbb xde duduk2...kena 8x8..ha! tw x apa tu 8x8? of coz la 64 en..haha..SALAH! mksdnye round2 bila customer ramai..tkot ada yang gatal tangan nyerrr..


                                                                         TADAA!!

Kat sini la aku kerja.
*sumpah aku xtw kenapa gmbr ni xmelintang.

Guys, my lovely niece & nephew ada di KL! Omg! rindunya tak terkata! 

friends/classmates/course-mates/house-mates or roomates

KAWAN. Basically, kawan ley terdiri daripada siapa2 saja. no matter what are their religions, gender, age, and blablabla3. For me, boys are better as friends than girls.


WHY?? Because..
     *boys are not dramatic.
     *they are more loyal & honest towards friends rather than their GFs.
     *they willing to share problems, secrets, things and other things.
     *they don't cry over small matters.
     *they are not being judgemental towards people.
     *they can be sarcastic, but only with the truth
     *they gave GOOD advices!
      and so many more reasonssss...


So, I wanna thanks my BOY-FRIENDS that are always being good to me, like Hakim Muhiddin, Syahmi Amir, Alan Kwang, Ma'wa Awesome, Dek Mat and others.